Happy

I am happy when your smile lights up my room.
I was happy to have your seed within my womb.
I am happy for the things that we once shared.
I was happy the moments you showed you cared.
I am happy, to see the way you've grown.
I was happy to watch the courage you have shown.
I am happy to stand by your side.
I was happy to see the love you tried to hide.
You made me happy to see your shining face
and once i recall held me in a loving embrace.
No amount of money can ever compensate for what I need.
I want to be with you, I don't want to leave.
I don't know how to fix this, it's been months since things were right.
I don't want to argue and I don't want to fight.
The infidelity we can work through, its been faulted on both sides.
I cant walk away without at least being able to say "I tried."
I promise I can do better, but I need you to do your part to.
I wish you would understand its not about money, I just want to be with you.
I may have screwed up, but I'm not the only one in the wrong.
If I wanted money, I wouldn't have stayed with you this long.
All the money in the world wouldn't make me as happy as when your here.
That you finally fell out of of love with me, has been my greatest fear.
Your eyes have been resentful since Ive returned to you.
Theirs something your not telling me, and I want to know the truth.
If you dont want to be with me please just let me know.
It may be hard at first but ill have the strength to let you go.
Never have we fought so much since I came back here.
and things only got worse, when you went over there.
I want you to be happy but I want to be happy to.
I miss the happiness I had from being so in love with you.
I care for you I truly do, I can never say it enough.
Out of the mistakes I made, I made them out of love.
I want you to find your happiness if its not with me that okay.
I'll have the the times we shared, Ill cherish everyday.