Crash with Reality

Violent collision
Wreck with reality
Left wounded at the crash site
Where fantasy met with real life
Causing me to realize

I'm a victim to my own mind
Internal demons keep me imprisoned
Clouding my vision
impacting decisions
That made me addicted
Mentally conflicted
By the crimes I've committed
Chasing chemicals
Not the love I intended
Mistakes left unamended
A criminal conviction
While the verdict is pending

Tires are fast spinning
A race against time
Soon the truth will arise
Firm on the gas
I leave my guilt in the past

But I'm no match for the clock
The tires will screech
but won't seem to stop
Before I collide with a roadblock in life
Crashing head on
a feeling surreal
A state of shock holds me still
For a moment I'm numb
to the pain I will feel
While I finally open my eyes
to see what is real
The damaged caused
and the wounds that won't heal
Just leave scars on my heart

I'll plead guilty this time and just be glad I survived
I'll face the consequences I rendered
And always remember
the love I dismembered
Losing the warmth of your embrace
just for a taste
of the drug that ripped you away
It left me frozen inside

I was utterly blind
and I often denied
Until I crashed with reality
Sadly to find
I was only a junkie
compromising truth
for a beautiful lie