You're Not Actually Dead

Its 3 weeks 4 days since I first decided to kill you

Or the memories 

I'd held in my heart painstakingly swathed in led paint

It was beautiful

Your casket draped with petunias and irises blooming bright blue

And the singers they all sang that tune that we

Danced to with two left feet but its gone

And you're dead

Like I wanted you to be. 

Sure the acid reflux of memories still resonate in my heart

A trembling vibrato 

That bound all the times we'd been happy and kissed the new year away

And I won't forget

All the times we'd had been sad and alone and far apart

And it was lovely how you made me feel like 

I had to wear some string at all times to let them know you're in my heart

But I burnt it

And now you're dead.

But it seems to very hard for things to be how  I wanted them to

For no matter how you try you can't keep the past too far from you

And it seems 

You're not actually dead.

Chorus:

For dead people don't date 

Or kiss other people

Dead people don't wait to become friends.

Dead people don't flirt with ideas of seeing you again.

Dead people don't have the power to break your heart

Dead people don't hate their exes

Dead people don't make you cry from their words

Dead people can't move on

Dead people can't move on

Dead people can't make me move on

Dead people can't keep me from moving on

For around three months

You made my life the most amazing thing

And I'm telling you 

You made my heart jump when I'd hear the telephone ring

It was a different time

You brought much joy when you'd kiss me or parade me around your basement in dance

You made me quite sad when you'd not even miss me or think about giving that other girl a chance

You made me so enthralled with you I'd never allow you to leave my own line of sight

But now its over 

And you're dead like you should be.

But it seems to very hard for things to be how  I wanted them to

For no matter how you try you can't keep the past too far from you

And it seems 

You're not actually dead.

Chorus:

For dead people don't date 

Or kiss other people

Dead people don't wait to become friends.

Dead people don't flirt with ideas of seeing you again.

Dead people don't have the power to break your heart

Dead people don't hate their exes

Dead people don't make you cry from their words

Dead people can't move on

Dead people can't move on

Dead people can't make me move on

Dead people can't keep me from moving on