Who Am I?

I titled this "Who Am I?", not because I want you all to wonder, but more like because I'm wondering myself. I mean, do any of us truly know who we are? Maybe we'll find out soon enough.

Dear God,

Make me a bird so I can fly far, far away from here.

But where am I going?

I'm not sure.

I don't even know where I am now.

I mean, I'm 20 years old, I'll be 21 in August.

I still live at home and I dont go to school.

I tried to school once. It didn't work out.

I work though, which is good... right?

Over the pat few months, my big circle of friends gets smaller and smaller.

They're all off living life, while I'm here doing what?

You see, it's like this:

I feel as though I'm living life in a big glass box, only locked from the outside.

I'm forced to see everyone around me succeeding and falling in love and moving up in the world

And they're dangling their happiness in front of me, taunting me with their genuine smiles

I want nothing more than t have what they have

But how did they get it? What's their secret?

I would ask but I'm stuck and no one can hear me

I'm stuck with 4 glass walls surrounding me, banging on each side screaming and begging for someone to let me out

But they can't let me out.

You see, its locked from the outside, but only I have the key to unlock it.

No one can save me but me.

What do I do?

How do I move up in the world?

How do I feel like I matter?

How do I fall in love when I dont look like your typical size 0 girl?

How do I get anywhere when I dont even have a car?

This box is getting smaller and smaller and my problems are getting bigger and bigger.

Someone tell me where to go.

Author's Note

Any feedback is welcome, guys. Thanks!