to taylor

to taylor

you saved my life

you gave me a reason to stay alive

your fanbase saved me

you mothered me

you were my best friend

i feel my excitement fading

i no longer burst with pride when i say

i am a swiftie

i try to hold on

i dont skip your songs

i still know them all

but now im listening to more songs about suicide

i still relate to you

to your self loathing

to your insecurities

to your dreams

i will always have taylors version next to my name

i will always think of you

i will always have your photo in a chain round my neck

i will always wear a thirteen

but i may not always call myself a swiftie

im sorry

Author's Note

this is for taylor swift
aka mother