Obsessed

lifes so great

yet i feel so down

i have all that i want 

so why do i continue to drown 

i cant keep my head up 

i still cant breathe

sp when the water fills my lungs 

i sit back and let myself sink 

as consciousness fades to black 

the blade digs in 

looking for relief

yet again i give in 

just one or two i hear myself say

hesitant before i start 

but im addicted to pain

one turns to two 

then there are many more

i try to stop the bleeding before the blood hits the floor

its never enough to do myself in

but a part of me hopes that one day it is.