better off alone

alone here in this world 

im not complaining

cause this silence that encompassing me is quite entertaining

thoughts racing 

im never quite sure

the safety in loneliness never loses it allure 

though physically surrounded

im never quite there

im ok without love, without that secret affair

im better alone, ill never get hurt 

my hearts always guarded, always alert

i cant surrender my heart, i cant just give it away

so i'm locking it up, i'm keeping it far away 

i had started to open, i had started to trust 

but it was proven that this line can never be crossed

why should i believe what people say 

when they continue to deceive me like a mirage on a hot day 

how do i know when to open my heart

when all that it leaves is ugly red scars?

i'm safe in the silence that comes with being alone 

i'm ok with becoming a part of the unknown

so ill sit in this silence that has become so familiar

because in all honesty id rather be anywhere but here