Mid March

The honest 'tails' of 2 fish. Jhene Aiko's book '2 fish' inspired me to be completely honest about how I think/view myself. It's okay to note your flaws. Your insecurities. Still loading...

I have the attention span of a squirrel

I am insecure in love due to my past traumas

I wouldn’t call them relationships at all

I have daddy issues, even though he was there

Some days I need to be smothered

Others, I need to be left still

I need for me to be able to miss you

Sometimes I cry, and I can’t put the reason into words

Rather a good tearful release or bad

All depends on the day

At times I love my curves, other days?

I wish my high school body would magically reappear

My cynicism is a delicacy or fatal flaw in my encounters

At times I couldn’t care less

On the contrary, some moments I couldn’t care more

I live daily with two opposite souls

Merged into one temporary space

That I so selfishly posses and refer to as “my body”

Ignoring the fact of how impermanent my temple is

So it is to no surprise that I mostly feel

MISUNDERSTOOD.

I am not easy to love

But that’s why you are here, aren’t ya?

 

(I wonder if I was this strange in all my former lives...)

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i feel i had former lives as well...and did i go through the same circumstances as this life?
perhaps...but the past makes us skeptical...alert to dangers of the heart...often i want to go back to high school days when i didn't know any better...where i lived with reckless abandon.
i ask the questions and think about much you have covered in this poem...reflections and flashbacks..
j.

[elle]

j,
we cant know where we are or where we are going if we don't know where we have been. as an adult, i wish i knew then what I do now. But the beauty in it? noticing the growth.

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