Back To Me

About realizing what a terrible hole I'd dug myself into and climbing back out

Too many regrets, they tear you down,
So many mistakes, so many doubts,
Pulling me under, a cascading frown,
Over and over again, tired burnouts.
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This broken record, it's time to throw out,
Walk away, I don't need this,
Shut off the noise, I'm better off without,
Scream goodbye, one last bitter kiss.
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This isn't how I want to live, all wrong,
Complications, I bade thee farewell,
I'm getting back to me, to being strong,
Finding truth in massacre, time will tell.
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When all is said and done, beaten dead,
It's time to walk out, turn around,
Sick of lying, hearing what was never said,
In vain I tried, lost in every haunting sound.
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I whispered "never", should've screamed,
I drowned myself out, promises I wouldn't keep,
Fell out of luck, lies were all I dreamed,
Left the right behind, cut one layer too deep.
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I ran around in circles, put my faith in fantasy,
Shattered every light, sat all alone,
Locked my heart up, threw away the key,
Dependent on a dream, life tied to the phone.
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I'm getting back to me, back to living,
What I've become, my own worst enemy,
It's all too painful, all the sanity I'm giving,
I'm getting back to me, who I used to be.
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Subordinate to denial, that's no way to live,
Fighting the war, hating the cause,
Paying for time, remaining a captive,
Digging a grave, it's grasping at straws.
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Killing isn't winning, surrender isn't losing,
Death means never fighting, I'm not dead,
The vendetta burns out, this is what I'm choosing,
Victory is fleeting, I'll take freedom instead.
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Escaping the madness, world in disarray,
There's no looking back, nothing to see,
Done dying for someone else, leaving yesterday,
I'm getting back to me, to where I'd like to be.

Reviews

[Marie]

This tells a lot. Very good--to be "getting back to me."