Addiction To Amnesia

A weird poem about a woman who wants to forget her life so badly that she finds ways to injure her head on purpose, in the hopes she'll wake up with amnesia.

The pain!  The sadness!
Straining her memories,
Spiraling into madness,
Must forget, have to forget...

How will she forget
All that life's dealt her?
Every demon she has met?
A blow to the head should suffice.

Not too far, not enough to kill,
Down the steps she falls,
And lying so pale, so still,
She remembers, the pain, the sadness...

Another injury, another ambulance,
But the madness consumes her,
Unconscious in a blissful trance
And still she remembers.

Over and over, varying causes
Earn her a place in the ICU Hall of Fame,
Impermanent lapses and pauses
But she cannot forget the pain, the sadness...

Trying in vain to escape the past,
Trapped in the prison of her own mind,
That next blow to the head might be her last
But still, she replaces one hurt with another.

Upon waking in the hospital bed
Every time, the amnesia sets in
Only to fade and leave her with dread,
For all that exists, the pain and the sadness...

Eventually, the doctors caught on
And locked her up, safe and sound
Where she spends night through dawn
Banging her head against the wall.

Reviews

[Marie]

This is something different--trying to deliberately cause amnesia. And hen to end up still remembering, banging her head against the wall.