A Deserving Love

How many of us actually deserve the love we seek?

It takes determination to hold my place with love.

My mind is my enemy; my flesh is my deadliest foe.

Desire, wants and needs all reside deep within me.

Everyone believes that my heart is true and good.

 

I know the pain it keeps inside, hiding it from the world.

Memories released from my mind, alive my heart does hold.

How could I ever forget, lies, betrayal and mistrust?

I am not all innocent because many hearts I have broke.

 

I can feel the cold through the glass window.  The rain

of the outside world, full of loneliness and discontent. 

I can see the gaze of women’s past, lurking all about.

Don’t tell her my secrete, I don’t deserve loves touch.

 

Why am I so blessed? Why does love touch me so?

Have I paid my penitence with a broken heart of my own?

Is the universe now satisfied? Is this love now truly real?

or is this another setup, to make me feel vengeful pain?

 

 I want to believe in love again, that forgiveness has been given.

Can you hear my confessions, can you see the regrets?

Do you see the change in me and the plea for eternal forgiveness?

I can’t take another heart break, either deserved or not.

 

I want the past to be forgotten, erased from all minds evolved.

This love we have I believe is real, as real as flesh itself.

I can’t take another heart break, either deserved or not.

I hope you are real in this, for I trust you with my heart.

Reviews

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

I can’t take another heart break, either deserved or not....
No one does deserve a heartbreak..yet it comes ever so quietly and unexpectedly,there you are with your broken heart and all the pain with it and you don't know what to do.Life plummets you into such..and there you are facing an ordeal,a challenge that can either break you or make you stronger..
This had a lot of honest portrayal of the pain and anguish of betrayal you feel and how it hurts you,even when you want to accept love into your life..you are simply apprehensive.As always very genuine,spontaneous and above all honest.

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

in this painful beauty you open your heart wide open~stunning inner journey questioning~ the distress is palpable~the conclusions drawn with steadfast hope still present for actualizing that which is so deeply wished for~

[Stephanie S]

awwww omg this is so beautiful.....sometimes the pain just makes you stonger..and once you find what your looking for you will just appreciate it more...i think many can relate to this,,,,def myself, and i know how time can drag, but once you find someone new it just shows you how to move on....i so loved how you captured all that here :)

[Adora.xo]

Wow. That was beautiful, well written and very deep. Your choice in words is BRILLIANT! The emotion was evident, and wonderfully expressed. It made my gut twist with every emotion, and got me thinking... Keep up your good work!

Adora

[Coyote Poetry]

We need to remember the past. Teaches us to appreciate the sweet and good times. A excellent poem. Love is the biggest test in a life. To find love is easy. But to hold on to it. That is the hard part. A outstanding poem. Made me think too much.
Coyote

[Goddisia]

Ah... you have been forgiven, you are truly blessed, and God is smiling and pointing out that yes, indeed, the gift of love is real. When i read your painfully honest thoughts I feel so less lonely with mine. Life goes on so fast, the moments of bliss are memories inthe making... let go of everything tying you to the past, lose yourself in your heart, in love, in passion... we all deserve it. Thank you for this poem... thank you very much!

[Ladysue]

A very heartfelt write and wonderfully expressed...nicely done...

[deeps]

quite the expressive write here, full or emotions and questions. This is a very well expressed write here. Very poetic.