Goodbye ShadowA Poem by SubielooBattle with depression, addiction, eating disorder and low self esteem
The sky is grey just like me,
and here again I’ve always been. I long to live and to be free, but in the end, my sin will win. All I ever wanted is to never feel this haunted, but my past won’t let me go. So here I am again, not talking to a friend but writing down these words in hopes that it won’t hurt. Sometimes I just can’t breathe, my thoughts are choking me. I finally catch my breath, Though sometimes I wish death. How pleasant that would be, to sleep through it all no one to see me fall. None the less I wake again, An empty shadow in my skin. White pills to help me smile, but they always take a while. So many different bottles with directions I must follow, don’t choke on them just swallow. You’re done now, til tomorrow. Awake in bed at night, I think about my life. Will I always be this girl? Feeling worthless to this world? Or one day will this end? Where I will start to mend? Broken I’ll be no more, though there many scars I bore. He loves me as I am, my lifelong one true friend. Though time to time we’ll struggle, our bond might solve the puzzle. At peace then I can rest, Our future will be the test. © 2018 Subieloo |
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Added on May 31, 2018 Last Updated on May 31, 2018 Tags: Depression, suicidal, sadness, hope, true love |