What hurts the most!

You still say you love me. Why do you still say you do? We never said it out loud all this time and now suddenly you want to? I honestly do not know what to believe should I believe my ears or what my gut says. But my gut keeps changing sides because sometimes I feel all fuzzy inside and I know you are telling me the truth at least that's what I want to believe.

You say that you wish for me in your next life. How does that make me feel? How should I react when you say such things? Is it all lies or do you really mean it?

You say I mean a lot to you that you should have never let me go . Why?
You say you love me to the moon and back and for me to understand how much that means.

What hurts the most is you telling me you still love me. Because I don't want to feel that with you now.
I shouldn't. I couldn't. I wouldn't.
But you are making me feel all that I shouldn't
and that's what hurts the most.