Brokenness is her thing.

She used to dream of him often,

And always she remembers it by morning.

The mornings are spent thinking about him and

trying to analyze everything.

In truth, she sees him regularly because he is always on her mind.

No matter how hard she tries she just can't get him out of her mind.

She always wonder if he sees her too? If he thinks about her often.

Whenever they talk he makes it a point to tell her that she is special.

She wants to believe it with all her heart but at the back of her mind

she knows that it isn't true. He only wants to play with her feelings.

But the strangest thing is she actually lets him.

She lets him come and go as he pleases.

There are times when she hardly hear from him. when he completely ignores her

And she vows this is enough "I am going to sever all ties"

And then suddenly he comes as if nothing happened. As if nothing happened!

He makes the most horrendous excuses and she foolishly justifies his reasoning.

She knows that it isn't fair to be treated that way. That she deserves much more than he treats her.

But she foolishly lets him treat her like crap. Because honestly she is the most happiest when he is around.

And mo matter how he treats her and how many times he comes and goes she always lets him. She always does.

She likes the brokenness she feels when he is in her life. Sadly she likes being broken because it means he is in her life.