Holding on

I am acting against my better judgement when it comes to you. 

I have always been in control and never had to check myself twice,

But with you i feel so helpless and clueless as to what i should do. 

You have me feeling like a stupid teenager, Always hoping for more.

I know the summer days are over, It was good while it lasted and,

Like every season this is coming to an end but i am not ready to let go.

I am holding on with everything i have, I'm giving it my all but 

as always when you know I'm hooked you do your thing.

How am i supposed to move on because this time it was different,

This time it was more, or am i imagining it bigger than it was?

You are so cruel, that you do it on purpose. Every time you come closer,

I hope for more and when it feels like everything is falling into place you leave?

How am i supposed to get back to what it was? How things were before you moved in?

To how things settled to, the last time you left. I always think this is the last time,

But as always you prove me wrong. You let me believe it really is,

But you never stay. You never let us settle. You came in planning to leave.

Because i think that, was the last you left but no it wasn't

and then i think this is the last time you are going to come but no.

Like the utter fool i am, i let you go and come as you please.

Even after you leave hurting me, i still let you in the next time.