Longing....

He doesn't know about the hours in bed she spends long into the night thinking where she went wrong? What happened between them that she has to feel this way. He doesn't even have second thoughts when he thinks about the other girl. While she is thinking of him he is thinking about that other girl wishing that she talked to him, longing or her to talk. 

What he doesn't realize is that because of him she is suffering, because he gave her a tiny bit of hope to hang on. She grasps that with everything she got even though she knows so well that he only wants to have her hooked in his finger. She voluntarily lets him be in charge because that's all she knows and that is all she wants.

HIM.

She thinks she deserves to be unhappy because that is all she gets for loving him. She is so used to unhappiness that whenever someone comes along and makes her smile she just shuts down because deep down she likes being broken, she likes being broken with her memories of him.

Little does she know that he has no place for her in his heart, where it is all consumed with memories of that other girl he loves.

But she keeps longing into the nights and try bringing those little moments she had him to herself and live on those moments because that is all she knows.