a letter to the girl i will find someday

A Poem by onlytemporary

I know it's crazy and my heart has been broken so many times that you could make a mosaic of my mistakes out of all the little pieces that are still left. From the times I loved far too openly and honestly and people couldn't handle it, to the times where even when I gave all that I had just wasn't enough. I am broken. Experiences like these shattered the windows of this soul and now the cold winds can get in far too easily and sometimes I might feel like ice; cold and unfeeling but I promise you this love will burn so bright that it will take more than a little drizzle to put this flame out. I may not be whole but if you are ever feeling broken I will give whatever pieces of myself that I have left just so you never have to know what it feels like to feel like anything less than what you are: anything short of amazing. When your pillow is too soaked to hold anymore of your tears I will be the shoulder you can always cry on, I'm not afraid of a little water. If you ever sink below the surface I will dive head first and pull you back to the shore. You know, most people would have given up on love by now if they had been through what I have been through, but I'm not like most people. Because I know you're out there somewhere sleeping next to a body that you no longer recognize, holding your shattered heart in your shaky hands and no glue to help you stick the pieces back together and I know it is so hard to keep believing in love after it has let you down so many times and it all feels pointless but if you can keep fighting, keep believing, I promise when you get here all of the lights will be on and there will be a place for you in my bed that I will keep warm for you until you arrive.