Memories

 

 

 

Oh look what I have stumbled upon!

It’s my old laboratory,

Where I toyed with brainwaves

And twisted laws to my will.

An unholy play land

I reveled in way back when.

Let’s take a walk again down memory road

To examine past moments,

Savored and hated simultaneously.

 

 

Here I enjoyed the mental manifestation               

Of a demon I fed and raised as my own,        

Gave it life with my hate           

And let loose the reins til it devoured me as well.

I ripped myself from its stomach day after day,                   

Repeating our sick tango of power.

Where has the power gone from this one?                              

Has this thing fled finally?         

Moving on was the means of survival, but not before…

 

       Talons dug within my brain

 And drug me limply to my own personal Hell,

Where I delved into the false sciences

           Of the class Dementia 101.

 These were my tools,

   Here on this table.

        Music of darkness and misery,

Thoughts leading to less sanity.

  Knives, rope, swords, razors,

         Sleeping-pill-and-vodka cocktails.

     Let’s take notes of my findings, great and small.

 Form it into words so others can see

         This self-inflicted deterioration into…

 

No.

 

This room is not me anymore,

I am beyond this nightmare now.

More going for me now

Than I had back then,

I didn’t have these chances,

Didn’t know His love as I do now.

Didn’t have the gift of a special friend.

Now I stand tall,

Light this match.

Memories of torment

I bid thee, adieu!

 

 

Author's Note

Done!

Reviews

[FoolsGold23]

WOW! *applauds*
Survivor poem! HOW they make it worth it!
A struggle through darkness, but a triumph, and well won at that.
Bravo John, it has worked out for the better, the past dark makes the present shine,
and reading this is a tribute to Healing and the road that we must all travel.
Thank you for being honest. Great write.

[Call me Jane]

This is a good poem that was really descritive. it is a good wright! thanx for sharing.

[Penny Dreadful]

wonderful. loved the ending.

xxxx

[Ice Queen of the Vampir..]

......wow. This is a powerful write. Really amazing and the formatting is perfect. Great work!!!

Heather

[Larissa G.]

*applauds* It is a powerful thing to read; it truly comes from your own hearts. I loved the format used to convey your changing thoughts with time.