Questions and Answers

... yup.

 

I wonder, did he feel the pain?
Did he know what was happening,
That night my mother ended his life,
Could he feel the cold gunmetal pressed
Calmly against his temple
Before he lost the right side of his face?
Such a way to die was not fitting for a marine,
A cowardly death followed by suicide.


I wonder what was on her mind
When she pulled the trigger each time?
Was she aware of the pain she’d cause
As she pulled them both away from us?
I wonder what sort of pain she felt
As she slew her sleeping lover,
Was it heartbreak that coursed through
Or a sick sense of twisted victory?

I wonder all of these ghastly things,
The images of their deaths are plain
And I’ll be haunted time and time again,
Unable to sleep because of this pain.

Questions forever will remain unanswered,
But I must look deeper in myself,
Must ask myself a simple question:
Do I want the answers all that bad?

Reviews

[Tai Chi Italy]

Hello dear John! the fact that these questions have arisen in your poetry and thought suggest a vital part of your journey and eventual recovery from the terrible tragedy that overtook you and your family.....because you are airing these issues, which frankly, were probably not even an issue to those perpetrating the tragedy....spur of the terrible moment...as we have spoken of before, diminished faculties, etc etc, all add up to No Answer to your questions, well not that would satisfy your soul, but you knew your parents better than anyone else concerned and in your heart, you knew your parents loved you....You are right that it is best not to dwell on things you cannot fathom, that is so true....sometimes we just have to let fact and life wash over us, no matter who disturbing or disorientating it may be....

Sometimes it is for the best, but every time, you feel inspired, is a great time.

Smiling at you

With a hug from

Tai x

[These Haunted Hallways]

My God. Man, i heard the thunder in this one. Why these senseless acts? Im like shocked right now. Dude, it's so not fair :( Very, very disturbing, it is :( Im so sorry, man :( Good poem tho.

B.A.