Resilience

Sometimes love just isn’t enough
As much as it hurts my heart
I hope you can find it in yours to forgive me
(Someday) for what I have done
Time to close my eyes
Try to sleep…
All the worries from my past life
Are creeping up on me from behind
Sorrow and sadness fills my soul
As I struggle to find myself and once again feel whole

Telling myself it’s going to be alright
But then I look to my left and see you’re not at my side
I’m attempting to tell myself where to begin
From this point on
Time to say goodbye to all that I’ve known
Let’s hope to find a better place
In this moment of peril
Wait, let’s have a moment of regression…
Reality sinks in
As I lose the argument to my better half

I need someone to come and save my life 
No need to rush 
There's no feeling like waiting to die
I’m breaking down…I’m breaking down
Still scared to sleep
Knowing what my dreams will bring
Images I can’t bear to conjure in consciousness
I’ll keep trying to hold my head up high
It’s no use, I’ve got H.H.S. from this throbbing anxiety 
The pills aren’t helping any…

Feeling like a puzzle with half the pieces missing
Yet the remains are strewn across the room
Within reach, but too much effort to construct 
I’m exhausted from this burning sensation behind the eyes
Rushing down like wildfire, masking this disaster
It’s something to ponder, what happens after?
There’s slim hope for rebirth
If anything there’s meaning in the outcome of the memories
But sometimes love just isn’t enough

Author's Note

This poem is written as a setting of the last moments of someone's life. The verses describe the last thoughts they have, heartbreak, despair, love, and loss. "sometimes love just isn't enough" makes it clear that they have lost someone they love because they have done something unforgivable. The author hopes the person they love will forgive them someday for their horrible deed which is not revealed bluntly, but it is assumed that they are hoping for forgiveness for taking their own life.

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