Do I love the High or the Drug

My first piece on this site x.x

I don't understand why you won't even look

At all the love I gave you that you selfishly took

You're just phantoms of words that turned into lies

But now I see through your careful disguise

I'm staring straight into awaited demise

They say the way we live is the way we die

It's quite fitting I crumble in front of your eyes

Blinded from the pain in my perpetual high

Since you were a drug that no one could quit

For some reason I was a proud addict

Then in the end, it's fitting I was killed by my habit

Goodbye to the world, I lived my sweet, sweet love

Only it's too late to realize what a lie it was

Author's Note

any critiques?