Dear Brother,

Dear Brother,

A Poem by StormeLight

My emotions threaten to consume me
Here I am again on the brink
A mother so abusive and controlling
I can never properly sleep
The feeling overtakes me
Every time I feel the gas-lighting
I shake and tremble and she takes my power
Trying to form my sense of reality
Even messing with my memories
How can I love someone so cruel?
How could I have seen her in so many other ways
How does she make me feel like I don't want to live another day?
I can't live another year like this
Or another moment
I only know I have to take it back
Everything she took
And convinces me to give her
When I'm alone I hear her voice in my head
Filling me,
Filling me,
With perpetual dread
I only have my brother
The only one I can trust
Even though we have bore such burdens
Along that winding road
We had to have a heart to heart
The hardest talk we've known
Of a brother and a sister
Who came to loathe instead of love
We found peace within this honesty
When the pain we spoke aloud
Over and over we talked of pain
Until it lost its power
Now we have each other
And yet we feel alone
As we both walk a road of independence
Trying desperately to reclaim our throne
Victims of abuse
Confused and contorted
Made not to see the damage
By the ones who want to remain unseen
How else can those with fear
Maintain their precious power
But take from others close to them
Before they can recognize
Before emotions turn sour
Brother,
Oh, Brother,
You don't know what you've done
You stood up to the only person left
The one who makes me long for death
You earned my trust
You gave me the most precious Christmas gift
One I never expected to receive
You stood up for me in a moment
When everyone expected you to agree
You stood up for me
Now I can wake from denial
And I can grieve
Because now,
I am not alone in the world
I don't have to make up stories
Of who I hoped she would be
Instead I can see what is in front of me
I can grieve
Because it doesn't really matter
That I don't have the illusion anymore
I only clung to it because you were with them
But now you are with me
And you stood up for me
Brother,
Dear Brother,
Now,
We have each other

© 2021 StormeLight


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It's heartbreaking to read things like this - especially at Christmas.

I know it's a confessional, but I have a brother, and I'm familiar with the drowning sensation you've described here. All I can say, is that there's always more to it - I'd encourage you to read, as much as television seems to counterintuit (not a real word) the reading process, and I'd encourage you to think about classes: anything that pertains to the arts, creativity, or your own affinity with creative passions.

Tattooing is a beautiful artform, as is writing, and they can both make differences - either financially and personally.

All the best from a stranger, and merry Christmas from someone who doesn't know you at all.

-Ook



Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

StormeLight

2 Years Ago

Thank you sweetie, I appreciate your heart felt message. My brother and I have forgiven each other a.. read more



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I am not alone in the world
I don't have to make up stories
Of who I hoped she would be
Instead I can see what is in front of me

I can relate to these words here, This is such an emotional read here. I can feel the sadness.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

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StormeLight

2 Years Ago

Thank you, I thought I was going to die of a broken heart last night, but I think I got enough of it.. read more
It's heartbreaking to read things like this - especially at Christmas.

I know it's a confessional, but I have a brother, and I'm familiar with the drowning sensation you've described here. All I can say, is that there's always more to it - I'd encourage you to read, as much as television seems to counterintuit (not a real word) the reading process, and I'd encourage you to think about classes: anything that pertains to the arts, creativity, or your own affinity with creative passions.

Tattooing is a beautiful artform, as is writing, and they can both make differences - either financially and personally.

All the best from a stranger, and merry Christmas from someone who doesn't know you at all.

-Ook



Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

StormeLight

2 Years Ago

Thank you sweetie, I appreciate your heart felt message. My brother and I have forgiven each other a.. read more

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Added on December 25, 2021
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StormeLight

Orem, UT



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