SurfacingA Poem by StormeLight
A decade ago
A monster became my home Voices inside my head Hurting and hurting Not caring how much I bled I lost my sanity it's true A strength in a darkness No one thought I would pull through Everyone in my life Was scared of what was inside Not knowing if one day I'd be violent Like the voices in my head So my father lied and told them instead And then all I had Was the voices inside my head The pain of his lies In the midst of forgiveness That took me ten years Was more than I could bear I'd worked so hard to keep him out He got in with a tiny tear How could my family believe his lies Then I realized they didn't know me at all Was I stuck inside? Were they willingly blind? How could no one be on my side? Their pills were killing me faster Than any remedy I'd ever tried Simultaneously locking me up inside Their drugs or mine? Their drugs or mine? Their drugs or mine? What kind of hell is it to decide Their drugs or mine? Their drugs or mine? Their drugs or mine? Trapped inside the walls While the outside claims I'm getting better I'm unable to speak It hides me It hides me It hides me The part of me that can save me from myself Is trapped inside Disassociation Illusions full of holes But everyone is too afraid to let go So I'm lost in the control Trapped inside the walls Screaming to get out and just be heard Of a past so bleak The fact I survived is so absurd But no one wants to hear me They just want to drown me So they don't have to hear me Anymore © 2021 StormeLight |
StatsAuthorStormeLightOrem, UTAboutJust a writer, artist, and singer-songwriter, trying to stay alive and inspired in this crazy world! more..Writing
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