A Cycle That Can't Be Kicked(I want you)

Sometimes.........

It started with a simple text.

One that changed my life forever.

You came into my life,

1000 miles away,

Deep down in Tennessee.

 

We fell so madly in love.

All day every day, We held conversation.

I was happy, as happy as I had ever been.

But, my fate, was unseen.

 

You started with all of your depression,

Constant threats, "IM KILLING MYSELF".

Or even worse:

"I love you, but I can't be here anymore. What will this medication do to me if I mix it with that.".

I couldn't handle it.

 

I tried so hard,

To make you see,

But you couldn't tell,

How much you were hurting me.

 

I had to cut it off,

But I need you in my life.

I have to do what is right for you!

I have to do what is right for me!

 

I never knew,

How much I loved you.

And I wish I could tell you,

And make you believe.

 

But you won't here of it,

"If you loved me at all you would have stayed,

Stayed with me. You hate me! I need you! I'll just go die."

That's wrong! Not right! I wanted to be with you,

But I can't have you running off to kill yourself everyother f*****g day!

 

And I can't take how when we do start to talk, you slowly push me away.

I want to make you happy.

Maybe I'll try again.

But everytime, I "try again",

We go through the same 'ol same 'ol.

Each time, you kill me a little more inside.

 

I just don't understand,

After everything you have put me through,

Why is it so hard to say "Goodbye."

I can never stop thinking of you my love,

And in my darkest hours, It's the image of your smile,

That sees me through.

 

I've never ever, EVER!, Felt this way before.

I just can not decide, do I try once more?

Author's Note

Reviews

[MattHeston]

I can relate.

[lovely-livia]

i love this! the emotions are so strong!

[Dearantlers]

It's a really good poem, and very well done, though I'm not sure that I liked your language in one part.

[theopenbook]

a real portray of what the heart feels:) and if that person is not willing to make compromises then just don't beat yourself out over him:) because things do get okay after a while:) a nice poem:)

[Light and ashes]

A really good question, but I am afraid I dont know the answer. Great poem