My Mind's Wife

As you sit, sipping, slurping the drink I bought you.
Killing my soul, kissing a boy you hardly know.
Hands move up your vomit stained dress,
Hands slip and caress and press.
You don’t know I see you, not that you’d care.
That you’ve stripped me of what I am, and leave this man bare.

Shamefully you walk to me, because it’s me you’re meant to be with.
I hear the regret in your voice and I start to feel sick.
Go to the toilet and tears blind my eyes.
I love you! I hate you! I guess it’s just myself I despise.

I’ve let myself get attached to you. Like a tumour or a wart.
Wishing I’d just stopped this at the start.
But here I am, like death in a hospital.
Crying on my own.
Wish I’d just sprouted and had a life alone.

Working up the courage, to leave this hellish square.
But what I’ll find will be much worse, for you are out there.
You! My minds wife. It seems I wasn’t asked.
If I vowed to love you always til’ mortality has passed.

Now it’s time to face you. My Princess. My W***e.
For no matter how you hurt me, your smile I’ll still adore.
The Prince in me loves you, and we could run the state!
But. The peasant that I am, feels nothing but Hate.