If This Is Goodbye

It's bittersweet, but if this is how we end up, this is what I wish you I could tell you.

Distanced

Estranged

Unfamiliar

Words I never imagined would apply to you and I

Swore to myself I was done writing about you

Yet everyday supplies a new reminder

Something to send me back

And make a smile dance across my lips

How tender we used to be

The pure love and joy that used to surround us

It's all gone now

Replaced by the wall you've built around yourself

Protecting you from me

Me

My morning shower sent me back

To the time we danced in the shower to no music

You hummed the rhythm

And we swayed together

I remember the little things sometimes

Remember how hard you used to try to make me happy

Speaking in your British accent

Or becoming a made up superhero who wears goggles and a cape

The truth is I miss who you were with me

I hate that you've cut yourself off from me

And that the only thing I do is hurt you

The truth is that for over two years, I was crazy about you

I loved how you loved me

But when it rained, it truly poured

And I could not allow myself to drown in your storm

He holds me differently

Kisses me differently

The kind of different I didn't know I needed

I'm learning to love in a new way

I wish the same for you.

Reviews

[SquinklaPsyOps]

It sounds like when you cried you let it all out, but he is still in your mind and even though you have someone else, he holds you different and not the same way you are used to.

[barricade]

This was beautiful... Sad in its own way...Yet gorgeous... I loved it :)