Lovers

i don't know

To be honest

I miss you

I miss how you swallowed my life

and everything about you ran through my head

every second

of every hour 

of every day

How you made me feel whole

and real, and powerful

I could conquer anything when we

became one

You told me what to do:
Don't do that

Don't listen to them

Don't give in

It'll be worth it

and I listened

It didn't seem right

But you made me feel alive

Superhuman 

Not needing anyone else

Not needing anything

Not needing

You would f**k my insides every night

as my body growled with pain, hunger

aching for something 

just anything to stop the pain

but overtime, you helped me love it

love the cries my body made

you helped me love hating

you rewired my mind

my brain

a robot knitted by 

you, I was your little 

Frankenstein--abiding by every word.

You helped me lose who I hated

you helped me lose the ugly

you made me feel pretty

you made me destroy myself

to love myself

you were my best friend

my only friend

my one and only

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Reviews

[Lost]

Been feeling this very bittersweet sentiment about recovery. I miss it too. Lately more than usual. Really relate to this one and I really love the pacing and form. Great piece :)