UntitledA Poem by StephanieAn old high school poem I touched up a bit.It’s all the same, just different faces. Same feeling, I take the weighting pressure of your body, the sick familiar comfort of your presence bruising my skin; same statements, same questions, You're beautiful, How much did you drink tonight? Come over, baby. same motions, Once or twice your hands glide heavily around me, curiously and hesitantly, Questioning the territory it’s knowingly going to f**k. same nothing. Brown eyes or blue eyes the routine never changes. easily looking past mine as I struggle to make meaning out of yours. Your eyes make me such a pretty picture pretty enough to f**k warmth coming on warmth fear’s war against decision the answer is always the same, you, whoever you are, you always win. I repeat my past as your power forces its way inside me the banging and the slamming and the pushing and the shoving against sides used for any dick that needs a relief i'm crying, as You don't care what my name is i'm crying, as You don't care what hole you're dick's in. i'm crying I cover with fake moans I play for you. My tongue takes in disgust, your need and your disparity. Our sweating scents follow our violent collision smothering the air’s silenced sin. Exiting my body, you pay your dues by leaving and I stay. It's a talent a skill What a beautiful life I live, I've learned to fall in love with lies. © 2012 Stephanie |
StatsAuthorStephanieNew Brunswick, NJAbout20 year old college student at Rutgers University. Survivor of self-hate, self-harm, old lover of drug abuse, present in recovery, trying to turn my struggles into strength for others. Writing is my t.. more..Writing
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