You don't care

On my return to work I was expecting support. What I found was very superficial. I felt and still feel an outcast, frustrated by ignorance of the acceptance of mental illness in the workplace :-/

You Don’t Care

 

Welcome back, glad to see you, how have you been?

So false, so fake, so let’s be honest, I know you don’t care

So look me in the eyes and then you will see my thousand yard stare

Weeks ago it was the only expression I could give and was so very real

Now I look at you fake smiles and know that you know nothing about what I’ve had to go through, in order to heal

You don’t care and you are too scared to ask me for a chat

I can hear you talking behind my back

“He’s just been off for a three month skive”

“He needs to man-up”

“He’s too soft he needs to get tough”

“He’s a fake”

The silence all around me is deafening, nobody willing to engage

I feel sad and disappointed rather than pent-up with frustration or rage.

No eye contact, engagement with this sick lonely freak, back amongst your cliquey group who regard me as so weak

Maybe look in a mirror and ask yourself why you judge me when you know nothing and couldn’t care less

I don’t need you false niceties or ignorant attitude, so let me digress

Leave me alone, don’t look at me and don’t bother to speak.

At least I will be happier when I have to suffer your company every day of the week.