guruphobia

A Poem by stellar

spirituality administration issues

i have felt god
with my body
with my soul
and with all of my sins

i have felt your anger toward me
but i am on the path to be set free

my slow train is passing by you
and this love you couldn't receive
reflects on my heart
of wanting to live

slowly, patiently
no hurry to be happy
no rush to get euphoric

just a slow slow slow progress
that will give me most of it

i've seen teachers who try to be with god
but particles of life aren't here to be right
they are here to feel, to make mistakes, to loose themselves
in pointless battles of common sense
and common heart

i feel you, i feel blue
but my god is with me even when i'm out of myself
and your god comes only if you do certain things...

well my friend, for me
this life would be so poor if i were so conditioned
and it's so rich in madness
there is no end, no completion

absolutely unaware of the illusion we are feeling
it is usless to think, i prefer living....