Chapter Four

 I woke up in the middle of the night in my bed. I didn't remember moving from my chair to my bed. I got up and looked around. The last thing I remembered was reading while Daniel studied. I looked at my clock. It was four A.M. There was a note from Daniel.

 

            Kyland,

            You fell asleep reading. I hope you don't mind, but I let myself out. No one saw me. I'll be back tomorrow.

            Daniel

 

            Daniel didn't lie in his note. He came back on Tuesday, around the same time. He studied at home first and then would come when it was dark enough to sneak in. I fell asleep reading again and woke up to another note from him. It was nice of him to do that and not leave me completely clueless. Most guys would probably just leave.

 

            Friday night he stayed for dinner, which my mom began to become okay with. She realized that we really were just friends. So we hung out in the kitchen that night, sitting on the counters talking. She let him stay until eleven this time and he snuck in through my window around 11:15. We whispered so we didn't wake anyone up, and we fell asleep together. We didn't mean to. We just got tired and it happened. He woke up around six and left, but this time I woke up with him.

            It was nice waking up to him beside me. I'd always thought about how weird it'd be getting married and always having someone else in your bed, but Daniel made it seem alright. It was completely fine having him with me.

            I've always needed my alone time, but I didn't value my alone time as much anymore. I valued my time with Daniel more than anything else. I didn't know why. We were just friends. That's how it was and that's how it would always be.

            I couldn't like Daniel. There was no way. That would be going back on everything I'd ever said about being friends with him. It wouldn't be the same. No. It was simply out of the question. I wouldn't allow myself to like Daniel. What if…? No. Those thoughts could get me in trouble. I don't love Daniel. We're friends. That's it. No more thinking about it. That would only lead to feelings.

Reviews

[Wendy Seames Garner]

Kyland and Daniel falling asleep together in the same bed and nothing happening just doesn't sound realistic to me. No many teenage boys would pass up the chance to try something. Why is Kyland afraid of feelings? You don't show anything in her background that would lead to her being afraid to feel. Abused as a child? What about her father, there has been no mention of him.

[lori c]

at the end of this chapter i am seeing some inner conflict and that will help to move the story, but where the conflict came was a bit jarring to me as a reader. it's obvious ky likes daniel so not liking him is not an option at this point. maybe editing the ending to leave her wondering where to go from here.? frightened at the prospect of developing feelings on a new level. ? like most teens, she's fine one moment with life and confused the next... that makes sense... though somehow the ending here seems out of sequence to me .. what do you think ?