Writing Prompt: Trust Me, It's NOT You!!!!!

Writing Prompt:  Excuses--"It's not you, it's me."

 

My boyfriend and I were going through some difficult times.  But only because I couldn’t find it in my heart to tell him the truth! 

Yea, I know it’s bad!  You should be able to tell your guy�"or girl�"the truth about your feelings!

But Derry, doesn’t listen to me!!!!!

That’s when I met Jackson.  Jackson’s been great!  He listens to me and my problems.  Even when it sounds like I’m being a drama queen.

Drama queen?  Why do people use that expression?  Like whenever you have issues, people can deem you a “drama queen?”  Doesn’t everybody have issues they’re dealing with?  Or am I delusional?

I just find it weird that everyone can talk about their issues on Facebook or Twitter, or even post photos of their happiness on Instagram, and wah-lah…instant comments and likes!

But me…I post one problem…and total ignorance…no likes or comments…well, except nasty remarks from some fat b***h who sits on her a*s threatening me by sending some make-believe road-trip goons my way!  As if?! 

And who makes these idle threats anyway?!  Like, does it make you big and bad because you can throw a threat out!!!!!

Well, anyway, back to my friendship with Jackson…did I happen to mention that’s he’s great!

Yea, I know.  I’m romanticizing the guy.  I’m falling for this guy?

Actually, yes!  I’ve fallen in love with Jackson.  But I’m still committed to Derry.  Even though we’ve drifted apart.

I don’t know how to tell Derry that I have no feelings for him, despite still having a commitment to him.

Things between me and Jackson and I are like a fairytale.  He’s my “knight-in-shining-armor.”  I feel like I’m in some soap opera, stuck in a loveless relationship, while having eyes for another man.

I don’t want to hurt Derry by telling him I’m in love with another man.  But I know in the end, he will be hurt.  And lying to him will hurt him even more.

So I come to the conclusion that I have to be honest with Derry…for both our sakes.  Jackson is the one I want! 

Author's Note

This story is pure fiction. There is no real-life to this story. I thought of this while writing a writing prompt.