Enable my procrastination
Enforce my ADD
Shorten my attention span
Loosen my resolve
Make me doubt my memory
Let me question my eyes
I’ll interrogate all my senses
When you make my body lie
It’s hard to think around you
You make it hard to breathe
My words stick inside my throat
You make right turn into wrong
Tell me that I’m stupid
Feed me all your lies
Taste them with your hateful tongue
Then force them down my throat
I always swallow what you give
I always take my pill
I can always feel it shredding me
And tearing my insides out
Your words always lacerate
Till I lie here bleeding
I pray one day I’ll bleed away
And you’ll be left here mourning
I’m not surprised by my bloody hands
Or the red stain they leave
But then I find it isn’t mine
And I sit and laugh and cry.