my criptonite

im falling farther and farther into the hole.

is anyone there to keep me from reaching the bottom?

i do not know what to do anymore.

my mind is going somewhere that is unknown for me.

why do i feel this way?

the life of one slowly ruining the life of another!

i can not take this.

i am so lost.

please find me.

i can feel the vines of the rose crawling on me,

scratching me with the thorns of hell.

my blood, the feed that the demons need to survive.

i look around but all i see is black.

the darkness never seemed so friendly.

the darkness makes me feel delighted as

i welcome it into my life once more.

no more noise

only the sound of nothing

this depressed heart will hurt no more.

feasting off of the pain that sinks through my skin

and into my veins once more.

unreliability overflows my thoughts.

no longer looking for someone trustworthy.

this trance i am dripping deliberately into

the emptiness of my soul.

my criptonite is near.

i can sense it in my bones.

Heaven is so far yonder.

i shall never reach it.

the more you lose.

the farther i go.

digging deeper and deeper with each breath.

can you feel the sorrow?

can you see the creature of the night?

can you hear my agony?

i saw Heaven once, and now all

i can see is Hell.

Free me,

turn me into an angel.

i want to see heaven.

the path is too long for me to walk alone.

i tried to save you.

i saved you once.

now i have not the strength to do again.

you must help yourself

if you wish to help me.

bring me out of the obscurity

into the inconsequential air

i wish to suffer no longer.

to help me you must first help yourself.

i wish not to be punished by oneself for the things

of a weak-kneed other.

i am afflicted.

your carelessness underscores me

more bit by bit.

i stretch my arm up to find air,

but there is none.

drowning in the surroundings around me.

i pray that they take me and do with me what they choose to.

as long i can no longer feel the misery in my body.

unengage this demon and return it to its pure form,

an angel.

cut the beast from my flesh.

return the archangel that i seek,

and make me whole once more.