Trapped Behind This Mental Wall

How come when things were real

I did not know how to feel?

But now reality has closed its door

And I am feeling so much more

Is this some sort of magic?

My thoughts become so tragic

I've changed from what I was before

I am not the same person anymore

I'm living in a fantasy

Nowhere near reality

There are things here I cannot explain

Nothing will ever be the same

I see things that aren't really there

And then they disappear in thin air

Making me question what's real and what's not

Wondering if everything is just me lost in thought

These aliens in disguise

Pass right before my eyes

But I can see right through them all

As if I'm not trapped behind this wall

I'm peering through the dark in front of me

Somewhere ahead there's a light I cannot see

But I know it's there waiting at the end

To bring me to the only place I know my mind can mend