The Sliding KnifeA Poem by AMetaphoricalSoul
Every time I feel like s**t, it feels just a little bit worse
So every time I hurt, it's the worst feeling ever The pain just piles up The knife slides in just a bit deeper And when all I feel is pain Each second that goes by is the worst moment of my life Until the next second occurs And then the next one, and then the next one, and then... Every moment is a wretched torment Each blow to my heart is a brand new torture Am I getting stronger or weaker? Is it building my strength to endure more? Or is it gradually breaking me down? Is it making me harder or does it chip away at my soul? Will I become unflinching or will I erode into nothing? I believe in the latter For I'm losing control of the will to go on The scarce moments of ignorant relief only serve to emphasize my ever-rising agony My wounds don't leave a scar because they never heal Each moment of misery is a slice into an open sore Layered pain on pain Suffering has become a part of me Woven into the very fabric of my being Who I am without it, I do not know I am a walking suicide My mind killing itself a piece at a time with every breath I take Drowning myself with my own thoughts Poisoning myself with sweet lies of hope Every effort to improve rapidly distorts into an opportunity for self-sabotage An emotional masochist I have an addiction to life's hard lessons Making sure to repeat mistakes just to get them right Perfecting my errors Ensuring the right wrongs Putting myself through indescribable anguish Comfortably trapped in my despair, for it is all I know I may as well embrace it since I cannot escape it Crawl into the hollow void inside me and bathe in it © 2019 AMetaphoricalSoul |
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Added on February 24, 2019 Last Updated on February 24, 2019 Author
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