Cracked Shell

I wish you had met me long ago
When I was naive, pure, more innocent
This bitter, jaded person that stands before you carries too much burden

You deserve to know me before
When hope still existed
When confidence fed my optimism
Before this darkness took hold of me
Where I could lift you up
But instead I bring you down

Time has chiseled away at my soul
Eroding my heart
Dampening my charisma
I'm just the cracked shell of what was inside
A damaged vessel searching for its host

You would have liked me back then
My love was unconditional
My choices made boldly instead out of fear
No baggage weighing me down
Unaware of harsh realities

If you had been there
You could have drove away my darkness
And stay throughout the years
As a positive force
My shell remain intact
My vessel filled with love

But here I am before you
A failure of the past
A disaster in the present
Cracked beyond repair