2. Backwards

A Chapter by stalique

I make it to the entrance, with plenty of time to spare. I walk through the gates and realized, I forgot to comb my hair.

I pat it down, and feel the greasiness. Whatever.

I look around. Some familiar people, but no one I’m friends with.

My sister was my best friend.

After what happened, I went to home school for a semester.

It’s January now.

I walk to the attendance office which was a short walk to the right, picked up my papers, and sat down.

I have time to think, which is hardly ever a good idea.

Why am I still breathing? I think I'd just be happy if everything just disappeared or stopped completely. Silence. Everything sad. That would make sense.

I am in a mood.

I sit and let these things build up, and I find myself being angry.. at her..

Why do I have to be sitting here alone? I miss her so much.

'I love you bro.'

I hear her. My thoughts stop immediately. I look around and wipe the tears that were beginning to form.

I can't seem to find her. She's in my head again.

Shaking it off I stand and head off to my first class.

I read the building and I quickly jog up the stairs.

WHOOSH

A big body pushes past on their way down knocking me over. I fall a few steps to the halfway point. I'm tall and thin, and my balance is horrible, this guy going through like a Semi-Truck does not help.

‘WHAT THE F**K, YOU F*****G TRUCK’ I say with rage, not realizing what a ridiculous insult that was.

The guy stops and turns and chuckles, ‘What?’ A big beefy guy begins to make his way back up.

I stand and he and I are nose to nose.

I do not shake, I do not walk away. ’Bad timing, buddy.’

‘DO SOMETHING.’ He suggests.

Mistake.

I pushed him down the stairs.

I hop on down and it all comes out, every f*****g thing I wanted to cry about. Turning into punches, turning into kicks, Oh god, I feel so bad for this kid.

I’m blinded in rage, I forgot where it stopped, the next thing I know there was two security guards holding me and a blubbering teenage boy on the floor, bloodied.

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