Why Jade, Why?

dedicated to an amazing girly <3

I'm crying.
Or are you crying?
These salty tears that are staining my notebook dont feel like mine.
But yet I feel them falling down in streams.
Running into the black ink.
Is it me or you?
Guess it's both of us.

Why jade? Why?
It took awhile, but i got your goodbye.
Only you could make me laugh as wept
As i lay, wollowing in regret.

 

They say when someone dies its the closing of a book.

Why jade, why did you close the book half read?
so many blank pages- things left unsaid

Remember the nights we spent planning how to fill them?

 

My eyes hurt jade.
Do yours?

Where are you now?
is it cold and lonley?

or are you finally free?
I dont like the cold..

Do you?

I hope your free..

 

They say when you loose someone, its okay to greive.
But what they don't tell you is that after awhile, Noone cares.
You are eventually expected to move on.

I dont want to move on.
I may forget
I dont want to ever forget.

I want to remember your beautiful smile.
I want to remember our plans
I want to remember all our long conversations.
Talking to 4 am about our heartbreaks and random things.
I want to remember the times we laughed till our sides hurt
I want to remember the times we cried.
I want to remember our last conversations
Before you had to say goodbye
Why Jade, Why?

I want to break through the barrier of death
Clasp the bars in both hands and shake them till they let you go
Screaming and crying till they give you back.

I'm sorry I wasnt there to stop you Jade.
To hug you and tell you it was okay.
I'm sorry I was to selfish to notice your pain.
I'm sorry Jade, I'm sorry.

I love you twin <3 rest in peace

Author's Note

Jadey was the best sister you could ever have. She was kind, caring, sweet, funny, completly caf even though she tryed to deny it, and was the strongest person i knew. Rip Twin <3
Just in case, ignore spelling

Reviews

[The Bass Player]

Stacie, Im crying....This is beautiful.
As tough as she was, she would cry too. I want to join you, and help you break through those bars and bring her back, goddamn it i'd do anything to have her back. You are an amazing sister to her.
Although we will never forget Jadey, we do have to move on....Theres a lot of pain, but we will be ok.
Shes all around us, shes here, shes watching us....
A beautiful write to an amazing person

[quinfinn]

i told you the other day, and i meant it, if it could bring her back ....i would give my own life

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

Thankyou Jake..
Kinda dont want to move on... really miss when I was in denial...

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

she is probably slapping us all for crying so damn much XD

[The Bass Player]

Her PaPa Q...She loved you....She loved all of us, she had a huge heart.
I know....it sucks...badly :(

[quinfinn]

to forget her is to dishonor her...i shall never let her go, she will always be right here in my heart

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

She'd probably yell at you for even thinking of swapping with her.. noone will ever forget her

[quinfinn]

i know she would yell at me...that is how she shows her love (one of the ways)

[The Bass Player]

Thinking on it, she yelled when she was mad, but she always cared...She put the other person first, and thats why she would yell.
Wow

[quinfinn]

exactly......trust me when i tell you that i have yelled at her several times in the last 48 hours....because i love her.

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

Ive basically spammed her Facebook with everything i want to tell her then sent her what her reply would be then yelled at her for not replying... should probably sleep ._.

[quinfinn]

sleep, i 'll not let her go ignored, believe that

[The Bass Player]

Knowing you, you'd get her replies right...She two scared us shitless sometimes, it was like you were connected and were reading each others minds..
You should sleep...

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

hehe we told you guys we were twins :P we shared a brain :3

[Rob Santana]

I was drawn to this poem because of the name Jade. It's my daughters name as well. "Jade Love" is my daughters name. Such a sad poem, I'm at a loss for words. I'm so sorry for your loss, I truly am.

[Zahra]

This is beautiful, and really sad, may her soul rest in peace!

[Emily B]

much love to you

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

thankyou

[Emily B]

i am so sorry for your loss

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

mm.. everyone lost her :/ Did you know her?

[Emily B]

not as well as i would have liked

[TrimarcoRansome]

What a heart ripping poem, so, so sad. Grieving is a long process and everyone does it differently, remember that!

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

I'll remember. thankyou minster

[TrimarcoRansome]

haha! sorry! it was very poignant for me as a friend is saying the same things to me about the loss of her mother, we all grieve at differing paces, it is when we don't grieve there is a problem, you will move on when you are ready to and friends will help you!

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

mm all you need is time :) and ice cream... lots of icecream....
I hope your friend is okay :/ it really sucks to loose people..

[TrimarcoRansome]

She is mending, at her own pace ;-)

[Sami Khalil]

A great tribute to a gentle and loving soul...Thank you for penning...:)

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

thankyou

[Sami Khalil]

My pleasure...:)

[quinfinn]

there is a new page that friends put together (i believe it is currently on top writers page) called tribute to jadey...some of her previously unposted writings...you may like to see. this is a loving tribute you have written and i am deeply moved by your sincerity and love.

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

I have.. read every single word.. she was an amazing writer. Will never understand why she thought she wasnt.
Thankyou for your kind words

[quinfinn]

her words will live forever...i will see to it

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

I'll help!

[quinfinn]

good, all who loved her will, i am sure.....

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

That'll be a lota people..

[quinfinn]

indeed.....but i will make her poetry available here from now on