what is life

What is this,
What is life,
What is a good life,
What is a happy life,
I know not,
What does it mean to live,
Spell it backwards it is EVIL,
Well I hate it,
It must be put to a stop,
I need it to end,
Today would be nice,
Set me free bang bang,
It would make this place happy,
Since I am a piece of s**t,
My own family hates me,
I’m in deep good bye good bye,