Disillusioned

 

BECAUSE I LOVED YOU SO MUCH…

I tried to call you....

You walked away, as if you never heard me......

I tried to remind you about OUR love...

You laughed hysterically at my foolish attempt...

I tried to breathe

You closed all windows and doors....

I tried ; tried really hard to save our relation.....

You asked me to go away forever...

I tried to forget your promises

You made sure, I should never forget the unfulfilled ones...

I tried to come to you and rest my head on your shoulders...I was so tired...

You shrugged your shoulders and pushed me away......

I tried to light a candle of hope in my room

You made sure, I never got one...

I tried to start life afresh

You converted me to ash...

I tried to be happy on my own and carve my own niche

You came like a cyclone...and blew away my home...

I tried to gather all the leaves and straws to rebuild my nest...

Now what?

You came back again to devastate my peace of mind ...

You succeeded, I lost...

Is that what you are thinking...

No, Sweetheart...

At the end of the day, GOD will come and take me away from you forever...

And I will nestle my tired soul on HIS lap forever and ever and ever...

Never ever will Iturn back to your world...

A world which makes sense to you only...

A world where I had no existence, no peace, no identity, nothing...

A world...Full of

Deception,

False promises

Pain, tear and sleepless nights

Sarcasm, nagging, humiliation and loads of depression...

Thanks honey, Thanks for everything...

I guess... I deserve this...

Because I....

Drowned my soul to love you...

Became a doormat to get you…

Lost my identity to please you…

Did everything which I should not have to attract you…

Neglected GOD, MY FAMILY andMY FRIENDS, just to be with you…

NOW, I will get back to set things right…forever…

GOD WILL HELP AND GUIDE ME….

I am sure…

I am sure,

I WILL

GET MY LIFE BACK...

GET THE SPRING BACK...

GET THE SUN SHINE BACK...

GET MY GOD, FAMILY AND FRIENDS BACK...

I WILL, I WILL AND I WILL...

I will soar high like an Eagle again....

Reviews

[Big ol' Kahuna]

Good poem Pratibha,

I liked the message in it. There is no reason for someone to be stuck in a relationship like that. I like the thought of the higher power giving you the light. I like to always think that things always, always do get better. Everyone just needs to find that light to guide them, whether it is God, or some other positive force in their lives.
Thanks for writing it.

[JC]

i see your strength through sadness and know you will only move forward,

[BABSIE BEE]

Oh my goodness Prati, This is soooooo sad. But such strength is felt due to your faith in God. It does,nt help the pain, humiliation or want, but with faith such as yours, you will shine like a bright star in the sky once again, because that's what you are....a star !!
Shine on
Thanks,
Babs xxxx

[ajasminewallflower]

You really like using sun shine and the eagle alot in your poems.I find them to be quite refreshing in your work. I love the message of strength to move on and to be a better person. I also like your use of metaphors to try and convey your lifes struggles with your significant other.

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Wow, this is powerful and intense. It was, however, a nice reminder that God does lead us to the right path and the right people, if we only listen to Him. And even when we don't, He is always there to pick us up and hold our hand as we get back on the right path.

You always write poems that somehow help remind me of the things I need to be reminded of in life. Thanks.

[Papuna]

this is so sad that a person is not able to appreciate what he has

[Honeypot]

You did good on this one Prati. Its sad when people lose themselves in an attempt to keep or gain acceptance of another person. It just never seems to work. Your poem was full of emotion. You always do a wonderful job of putting so many emotion into words and this one is also very wise. Just because a person may have lost themselves temporarily does not mean that they can not find their way back.

You did a wonderful job on this one! I think I have read it before.

[Sean Allen]

Five years ago I met a young doctor who was working at the Yale hospital in New Haven where I live. He was American, born in New Jersey, of Indian Descent. He had married a native of India who had gone back home to India to live with her parents taaking his young daughter. I felt very sad for him and his wife whom I had never even met. But most of all I felt sad for his daughter.

I read your well written emotional poem twice and I think it is your best work. I agree with Amber, it is touching.

[Amber Nicole]

"I tried to call you....
You walked away, as if you never heard me......"

"I tried to start life afresh
You converted me to ash..."

"I am sure,
I WILL
GET MY LIFE BACK..."

The emotions this poem evokes is so familiar yet the words are not my own. I've been in that position before a few times and no one, NO ONE, has the right to make you feel that way and nor do they deserve you. I hope you are/have gotten your life back. :) Touching poem by the way.