Drifting pail free

A feeling I have at time when my life seems on auto pilot. I look back and whole phases seem to lack vividness. I just wonder where my mind has been during the activity.

I am drifting, away from what's real
Through one eye I see a way back
But the comfort I get from this self induced numb
Keeps me away from the pack

I drift through occasions pain free
From the worry and fear I can hide
But I also miss out on the pleasure no doubt
As no lows brings no highs as it's bride