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At exactly 4 am this morning

I woke up missing him terribly

I wish I could tell you that

it's been easy, that it's

getting easier but it's not

I feel like I'm having a heart attack 

every time I think about the way

he left me

and how I couldn't chase after him

even if he wanted me to

The people I

barricaded around me

don't suspect a thing

They don't even know he left

Sometimes they ask how he is

and I always tell them

he's doing fine but I leave it

just like that even though

"without me" lingers on my

tongue and I know

you can help me but I can't

understand why he left when

he swore he'd never leave and

I wonder if he thinks about me

sometimes and if he does I wonder

what memory his mind wanders to

I guess sometimes we make promises

we know we can't keep but

we make them anyway because we'd

like to try at least

and I want him to know I think

about everything all the time

and that I keep finding my 

scars around me again

I put them on my wrist and wear

them like armor, he always made

me feel so invincible

At exactly 4 am this morning

I woke up missing him terribly

I wish I could tell you that

it's been easy, that it's

getting better but it's been

13 weeks without him and

I still can't breathe

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