Rebuild?

as we begin to rebuild

our shattered relationship-

friendship.

i feel different

about you.

i am guarded.

you broke my heart

too many times

for it just to be okay.

for me to just

tell you everything

i feel,

without thought.

but i cant

even look at you

without thinking

that your not doing it

because you miss me-

your doing it

so you don't have to be alone

when her lies become known.

you couldn't miss me less

i feel it when you look at me.

i don't feel that we

will ever be that close

ever again.

i started it-

i pulled away

so i could hide

my secret.

my drugs-

keep my dirty habit to myself.

but you shoved me

down and swore

that it was all my fault

you didn't care anymore.

i was the liar.

i was wrong.

who ended up

begging for

my forgiveness?

I should have done

to you what you did.

stepped all over your heart

and thought nothing of it.

then spit in your face

and

said

go to f*****g hell.

but i couldn't

because i missed you.

i missed you.

our closeness...