Caged Beast

it began months ago,

the restless sleep,

no sleep.

crying-

wanting to cry

but nothing comes out. 

now, here i am staring 

at the computer screen

wishing i could tell

someone 

that

i am hurting.

i dont know why.

but i am sad.

all the time now.

nothing cures the sadness

anymore. 

ive been searching.

is my only resort 

taking 

those pills

that kept me caged

like a wild beast?

i feel alone.

even when im not alone.

i cant relate to the real world.

to real people.

theyre reality

is not my own.

and i dont fit in

theirs.

i want to set my soul free

from all

my pain

and 

everything i feel in this moment.

dont worry it wont be by my hand.

i know i will be suffering for a long time 

before its finally over.

so bring me

the weed.

bring me the acid.

bring me all the

drugs 

that take me 

out of this body.

this world.

is my only resort 

taking 

those pills

that kept me caged

like a wild beast?