understanding me

A Poem by Sarah

I feel like im chasing tomorrow
But tomorrow never comes.
Always wishing that
The sun rise
And will bring me hope.
To end this
Miserable sorrow.

I feel like
I bore you with my
Poor me s**t.
I'm
Not
Sorry.

This is the only
Way i can
Bleed
Without
Cutting myself open.

This is the only
Way i can
Cry
Without
Tears.

They say
Just get over it.
Why dont
You step
into my brain-
Wipe your feet at the door.
Walk through my memories,
The darkest parts of me
And you will see
Its not something
I can just forget.
Too much pain
For me to just
Be okay with.

Yet,
im trying to find
Beauty
Even when darkness
Falls
And the sky is just black
Emptiness
The peace and silence
Is the beauty
Most do not understand.

Every detail
Of the bark
On a willow tree,
I see.

Every emotion
That isnt expressed
I see.

Most dont understand me.
And most never will.
Thats okay,
Because i dont think
I will ever understand
Myself.