The Wind in the WheatA Story by speakingcolorsIf you've read my bio, this is one of those little things that floated into my head. It may eventually turn into a book, but that could be just wishful thinking.May 30, 1932 My dearest Annette, I write you this letter not knowing why life is the way that it is. Life comes, life goes, and we are just spectators, watching it pass us by. There are a few though, a select few, that have the chance to catch up with life and follow the path that it makes. But no path is the same; they may run side by side or they may cross, even but for a moment, but this we cannot control. I have watched my life pass by me for many years, wondering day in and day out if it will ever ask me if I would like a ride. Not necessarily a ride to somewhere, but a ride to wherever it is going. I can't help but wonder, though, if my life got lost somewhere along the way, if it made a wrong turn, if it has crashed and lies fading away on the roadside. I do know that I have not helped guide my life through the twisting, turning paths that it must have taken. And in my failure of guidance, I fear that my life, in losing control, has collided recklessly with the lives of those who I hold dear to my heart. I hope that I have not hurt you so deep that you will never again let me pass through your thoughts. I hope that I have not scarred your life so badly that you can never again be who you once were. I know that what I have done to you may be something that you may never find it in your heart to forgive me and I am prepared for all of the consequences. I have caused you pain, and for that I am truly sorry from the deepest parts of my soul. I know that what I am saying must seem to be a jumbled mess of thoughts and feelings, but I find that I am at lost for the correct words to say what I truly mean to say. As I look to the future, I am unsure of what it may bring. It is a strange road, darkened with the shadows of doubt. I want you to know, however, whatever has and may come to pass, I love you. I have always loved you. Every little thing about you captivates me, engrosses my every thought. I do not say these things to try to sway your thoughts of me. I only say them so that you know truth, something I know I have not always spoken. I leave this letter to you as I do my heart and my life. If you feel that you can once again hold me in your heart, come find me, you know where I will be. If you cannot, then may you do as you see fit. Whatever your choice, I only ask you one last request: Will you not let your life pass you by as I have my own? I cannot make you do anything you do not wish, but I can hope that you will live your life to its full. I do not expect these words to persuade you to come back to me, I do not expect anything anymore. I only wish you the best in your life and whatever that may bring. Forever with love, William
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The sun sank low in the sky as a late spring day came to and end. The air was quite, cool with a breeze. The wind flowed through the wheat fields ripe for the harvest. The land was flat and straight except for a lone silhouette that stood black along the horizon. © 2008 speakingcolors |
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Added on February 28, 2008 Last Updated on February 29, 2008 Authorspeakingcolorssomewhere outside looking in, PAAboutpoet/songwriter/author sometimes I feel so much it hurts. i have all these thoughts running through my head, little segments of a whole that i can't see. most of them never get put down in writ.. more..Writing
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