The upside down clown

The upside down clown
He's out to get me
To pull me upside down with his metals and mechanics
To bend and pull and renew all that looks sad
He stares at me dreaming up who I am supposed to be
Out with the old in with the new he says
He starts with the top, my long frown
He shakes his head in disbelief
He tuts at my nose, my eyes even
My bone structure
His idea of perfection awaits
Tick goes the clock
I wait in pain
He pulls out nails and hammers and all things cruel
Turning me into the creature he believes me to be
His idea of perfect
My eyes close, my lips freeze, my face and torso numb
As the liquid floods in
His liquid mix of insanity
He gets to work drilling and cutting me apart
He waits a while
Finally he is pleased
As now I am the creature he wishes me to be
With a cold ice heart and metal case
I am nothing but a robot
But all I ever have been in is a robot
But now at least I am the creature he wishes me to be

Reviews

[Chelle]

Hmm...I agree with Nick Mowery that this is a very interesting poem with a unique concept. From reading it, I interpret that the "clown" is a figure in the speaker's life whose influence and demanding nature causes the speaker to be forced to change from who he/she is into something acceptable to the "clown". I find this poem to be easy to relate with and creative with the way it was written. Excellent.

[Chelle]

I just now read your tag involving borderline personality disorder. I was close with my interpretation but wow! Nice way to express the takeover of an alter ego. I'm even more impressed!

[spayne94]

Thank you so much Elle, you're exactly right. I feel like this creature controls who I am and that I have no control over this disorder and who makes me into. Thank you, I find having borderline personality disorder makes me creative and luckily I am able to express that in my poetry. Have a look at my poem the man. That's another description of the controlling aspect of the disorder. I'll have a look at your poems and thank you so much for the review. I really appreciate it.

[Chelle]

Oh, it's no problem. One thing I like to say is we all have a dark side somewhere within ourselves. I can personally relate to that so after I read your poem a second time after seeing the tag, it just hit home for me. Once again, amazing job on this poem. I really enjoyed it.

[Nix]

A very interesting poem... I still am not sure quite what it means but I like the way you write.