Struggle

I struggle with deciding what I should do,
Should I stay with him or return to you?
Should I apologize for saying goodbye
Or stay with my choices and say what I
Have desired to say since day five hundred and one...
Which is, "I'm so done".

I struggle with deciding which path I should take,
Should I go to him or start digging my grave?
Should I struggle with you or find a way to be glad,
Rejoice happily, or mourn what I had,
Run into his arms and be oh so happy
And smile like a child for being so lucky?

I struggle with deciding what I should say,
Should I mention it or ignore it away?
Should I tell him of you or you of his smile
Or am I supposed to wait for a while?
Whom should I pick, you or him?
In retrospect, I want this beginning.

I don't struggle, honey, not really anyway...
I made my choice, I did not stay.
I want him over you because he doesn't bite
Except in ways that make me smile and fight!
So no dear, no struggle here...
Time to move forward without fear.

No regrets, no second thoughts, no worries,
All is well the way things are going.
It's going to be fine, it's all going well
Time to move forward and think "What the hell?"
We only live once, so lets do what we makes us smile
Pull them close to us and let them stay for a while.