Oxygen Mask

I open the windows sometimes

when I feel my veins bulging with suffocation,

forehead reddening and peaked with sweat,

surfaces of my eyes teaming with forceful tears

Kick the covers off 

when I feel my veins bulging with suffocation,

hairs simultaneously standing up and being weighed down with a thin residue of sweat,

fingertips twitching with pin pricks after being slept on for too long

Closed my eyelids tight, so tight sometimes

when I felt my veins bulging with suffocation,

sitting on a blocked rainbow carpet in the kindergarten classroom,

little hands clenching as a kaleidoscope world begins to swirl my vision

Let the ignored calls, emails, notifications, reminders, texts pile up

when I feel my veins bulging with suffocation,

laying still on my side, staring blankly at the tan carpet,

white noise pierced by a cold vibrating phone

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